mmm hmm. okay.

when i close my eyes, i see the same image 95% of the time.
i will document it here >> in the form of a picture.....

okay, okay, so i say i will. but that is, honestly, yet to be determined.
will photoshop give you any better a visualization than my own semi-descriptive rambling?
if yes, then i will make a visual...and you can tell me if you've ever seen the same pattern underneath your eyelids.
i bet you have.
and if you have not, speak up!
then i will map out for you the image that plagues my lucid vision.

....................
i see.
i see........
i see a great big black circle. and within it another circle, but this one is white.
this one is white and within its gigantic circumference is a smaller black circle.
though its not much of a circle at all, for it has rough edges.
fragmented spaces of this black circle hold peaks of high and low points.
they are like a graph of the stock market.
or your heart beat.
or like the peaks of a lie detector test when you truthfully answer and then lie again, and then truthfully answer... and so on and so forth...
but in a circular shape.
round and round they go, these edges- all connecting...
bordering this black atmosphere that is surrounded by light.

then within this black space there is yet another circle.
a circle more circular than the last.
its edges not yet perfectly smooth, but distinguishable.
distinguishable by not only its almost defectless border, but by its bright white, translucent, tint.

you are now seeing the pattern?
the shape-shifting turns from smooth white semi-circular shapes to dark, rough, blackened semi-circular space?
----- and so it goes.

the final point- which i've decided it best not to fixate upon and time to open my eyes- bares the mark of alice's rabbit hole.
a mark from which no man or woman has ever stared at, and safely returned.
a mark whose recognition holds no hope.
no saving chance to be sane, happy, or human.